Pyrrhic

I look in the mirror in the morning, and I see an ugly face. (link-reveal:"It is my face.")[= I'm glad I can see an ugly face, because it used to be a [[stranger's]].

And one day I will look at my face and it will not be [[ugly]] anymore.

I look at my body. It's ugly, too. But it will become (link-reveal:"better.")[ Someday I will love it and I will take care of it as others take care of their own. So I am glad I have an [[ugly body]] right now.]

I am standing in a house. It is not my house, but it is my home. I will probably never have a house that is mine. I will probably live here, and in other people's houses, for the (link-reveal:"rest of my life.")[= I am glad I have a home. I am glad that others have not grown tired of me. Perhaps one day, I will have a truer sense of [[ownership]] over this place beyond the four walls of my own room.

[[But I look outside]]

The world is rotting slowly, but faster than I am recovering. Every day there is a new headline that speaks to our mundane descent into what feels like inevitable suffering. It is scary and harsh and there is no hope that I alone could change it. (after: 5s)[Yet, [[one day]]]

(link:"I will be there.")[I will be there (link-reveal:"with my friends.")[= And we will laugh, and fight, and [[live]] in this hell we refuse to surrender to.]

I am not (link:"giving up.")[giving up. But to pretend that it isn't (seq-link: "scary", "hard", "inevitable", "painful", "apocalyptic")(more:)+(t8n:"dissolve")[ is a [[lie.]]]]

Sometmes it feels like the world wants to [[kill me]].

(cycling-link:"But you cannot destroy what I have built.","I have been dead for so long I cannot remember my old self","But I am here now, a ghoul built from hurt and determination and shadow","If I die I will have gotten to say I lived a good life","So take what you can, but I will not let you have it all","And I will keep fighting","Even when I would rather be in bed","Even if I wish I had the strength I know I will never have","Because one day","I may have something I can say was worth all of it","")(more:)[And that is [[enough.]]]

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